Monday, August 4, 2025
Dr. David Nozick Obituary
Tuesday, June 17, 2025
DYING WITH DIGNITY
Saturday, June 14, 2025
MY STROKE
Monday, June 9, 2025
5 SOUTH PALLIATIVE CARE ST.VINCENT HOSPITAL
I have now resided for over 3 months on 5South Ward, St. Vincent Hospital.On February 13/2025 I was taken by ambulance to the Ottawa Hospital Emergency Department.After a Cat scan was administrated I was told by the Doctor that the colon was completely blocked.Further consultation with the surgeon indicated surgery would be an e3xtremely risky with danger it would rupture the bowel line..I was given 2 weeks to live.
It was decided that the most appropriate placement was in the palliative care unit at the 32 bed unit at th St. Vincent Hospital.This decision was taken, after consulting with the palliative team.The decision was made to enable me to get the best possible medical care
After waiting 2 weeks for a bed I was admitted to 5 South Ward on March1/2025.As a palliative care patient the mandate was too kept me comfortable until my demise.
During my stay at St. Vincent I have had 3 blockages and a severe stroke.Miracolous ,due to the medical care I have received I have managed to survive. The care, compassion,of all the staff, orderlies.health care aids,nurses and physician has been exempty. I am truly thankful for their services and feel blessed to be here.Above all I feel safe in their care.
The staff is highly professional, offering services in a very calm and control manner.
To give you some examples of the care and compassion the staff demonstrates on a daily basis I refer to one on the palliative Doctors who are available on a daily basis.Ater consulting about my medical needs the Doctor asked if I wanted something and proceeded to get me an ice cream.When I suffered my stroke the Doctor immediately spoke to my family to indicate the series on the stroke and in addition spoke directly to my Rabbi that I needed spiritual help.I literally owe my life to the care I am receiving here.
Another example that just occured today.I was in the hall getting ready to wheel myself downstairs when one of the nurses stopped me to adjust my tubing so i wouldn't be exposed.A simple act of kindness that demonstrates the compassion and care the staff bring to each and any ever patient on 5 South Palliative Ward.
I am in the end stage of my life, trying to say goodbye to my family and friends.I feel blessed to be in a safe and secure environment.
Love David
Be kind to each other
Friday, March 7, 2025
CLOSE TO THE END OF MY JOURNEY
The bomb, within my body, has just exploded. For the past week my bowel has been completely blocked.Immediate medical attention was required. A call to the paramedics and I was almost immediately taken to the Ottawa hospital. After waiting in the hallway for about half a hour I was taken to an observation room in Emergency.
Upon examination the Dr. ordered a CAT scan of my abdomen as he was concerned I had a blocked bowel.As expected the Cat Scan confirmed ,
my worst fears. My cancer had spread to my abdomen where indeed my bowel was massively blocked.This was a life alternating event which would shorten my life expectancy,If the blockage did not clear I had less than 2 weeks to live,
Discussion with the surgical resident indicated surgery to put a stent in the bowel, was high risk and not recommended. The plan was to involve palliative care to keep me comfortable.In addition, the social worker would apply for hospice care outside of the hospital.I was simply to sick to go back to my senior residence.
The next day,suddenly my bowel begin slowly to work. My appetite returned and I was able to eat and digest normally.This was a shock to me however the surgeon pointed out that it would have no effect on my life expectancy.
At this stage I know I have a significantly lower life expectantly.The journey is not over,but I am close to the end of the life I have known.
Thank you all for your support,love and prayers.
Shalom
G-d bless
Love David
Friday, February 7, 2025
WAITING
I find myself with stage 4 colon-rectal cancer waiting for the bomb to go off. I have no idea, when or where my untreated cancer will go.At this time my cancer has not hit a major organ. I realize that could happen at any time.Truth be told I am living on bored time.
Currently I am battling an abdominal flu which has incapacitated me.. For now I have restricted myself to my room so as not to infect other vulnerable residents.Isolation has allowed me to reflect on my situation.I have resided for 8 months at this senior residence and for the most part it has gone well.I realize I need to be here for the care and support I am receiving.
My restricted mobility,fatique associated with my cancer have all served to limit my energy. The only times I go out is to medical and dental appointments. Socially I have a few dedicated visitors but for the most part I receive very few invitations from my previous social contacts.
I have tried to meet new people here and to attempt various new activities. At this stage I hope to blog regularly,try drawing.to attend lectures and play the odd game of bridge.
Financially I have budgeted well and for the most part I have not had to go into capital to reside here.
My goal is to try to reach my 80th birthday.
My faith,compassion and empathy remain at the highest level.
Thank you all for your support and prayers.
David
Sunday, December 22, 2024
MY 79th BIRTHDAY
:Praised are you Lord our G-d, king of the universe for granting us life, for sustaining us and helping us to reach this day."
I didn't expect to reach this day.Having Stage 4 cancer, untreated for a year, it is very hard to predict the consequences.For the most part I'm doing well coping with fatiquie,
As stated previously I have intergrated well into my new senior residence.
Tonight I will have a quiet family dinner to celebrate my birthday.
What lessons I have learned to pass on to the next generation?
What remains to be done before my departure?
The primary lesson is simply The Golden Rule.
"Do unto others as you would have them do unto you."
That is, treat people with respect,dignity,and listen and don't judge.I believe we are put on earth to make it a better place. Each act of kindness and compassion is a blessing
What's left to do?I have put my affairs in order and hope to spend time with family and friends.I realize my physical world has shrunk considerably but hopefully my compassionate and spiritual world is expanding.
G-d bless and thank you for all your support and prayers.
David
Friday, November 22, 2024
FYI
FYI my sympatico Email address is no longer active. If you would like to reach me please contact me at my new Email address dmnozick@gmail.com
Thank you for your support during this difficult period of my life.
David
Sunday, September 22, 2024
RETIREMENT LIVING
Psychologically what does retirement mean. A great deal depends upon your health, and what resources you have. Health issues, and financial constraints may severely limit your options. In my case, health issues dominant.
Psychologically one of the biggest challenges is to be able to give up control. Depending upon caregivers means abiding by their schedule. For example, my nurses come daily according to their schedule, not mine. Similarly I eat at designated times set by the residence.
Not being able to drive means depending on others or commercial options such as a taxicab or uber.
My limited mobility. deteriorating health and lower energy represents to me a further loss of control.
Psychologically I know I am in the last stages of my life .Feeling this ever day, ever moment becomes especially precious.
Currently I reside in a luxury retirement home which has all the amenities including excellent cuisine, first class programing, and sophisticated and a well educated clientele.
As my new permanent home it has been quite an adjustment for me.Despite being luxurious it is very much institualized. Meals are served at a set hour,seniors seat at their usual tables with their chosen seatmates.
Given these circumstances, my attempt to integrate was no easy task.I have attempted to do so by maintaining an open non judgemental attitude, friendly to all. For the most part this has allowed me to integrate successfully.Although I partake in a limited number of activities, namely bridge and painting lessons I have the opportunity to attend many more.
Although I have integrated well, I need to be cognizant that I am living in a for profit business and that little expenses add up.eg. laundry, parking and the communication plan.
I have established an operational budget and for the most part it is working. I am well aware should my health deteriorate further I will incur further expenses.
Retirement living has it's pros and cons. Security, safety and health issues,represent positive feature of retirement homes. I find access to my call bell brings a sense of security and well being.An important aspect of retirements homes is the opportunity to socialize, to meet new people, all of whom have extensive life experiences.
Presently I remain content with my retirement living arrangements although I must admit that visits from family and friends adds a much needed dimension. Thank you all for your support and love as I navigate this new stage of my life,
David
Thursday, August 1, 2024
SAYING GOODBYE
I am thankful that I have been given the opportunity to say goodbye to my family and friends and to thank them for their support and love.
During what time I have left I intend to live life to the fullest. I know my energy and heath issues will wane however I intend to make more effort to socialize and try new activities at my new senior resident.
I feel blessed that my family has chosen to fly from the West Coast to see me. My sister also has made an effort to see me. Friends, old and new, are dropping by to visit and say goodbye.
It is a strange feeling to live in the presence knowing that one's time is limited.
How should I spend whatever time I have left? Clearly family is a priority. I have chosen to try new activities and to meet new people at my senior resident.
Life at the end is a process and although I am not presently terminal, I know my time will come. Until then I intend to live my life fully.
David
Friday, June 21, 2024
RETIREMENT-TWO WEEKS
Officially retired 2 weeks I now know I made the right decision. This week has been filled with a multitude of medical incidents including a 30 hour stay in the ER at both sites of the Ottawa Hospital.
I also learned as a result of non-treatment for over 5 months that my cancer has advanced significantly.
Currently I am waiting for the results of a CAT Scan to decide whether to proceed with chemotherapy despite having 2 open wounds. Those results are known now and on the recommendation of my oncologist I have decided not to restart chemotherapy.
In recalculating my retirement plans I don't have the time to complete a second book, instead I will attempt to blog on a regular basis.d
In addition I need to decide where my permanent residency will be. I realize I am too ill to return home and my only choice is a senior resident. That too has been decided. I move to my new retirement home this coming Wednesday.
Life is precious, I have a limited time to remain fully functional. I aim to use each day, each minute wisely.
Retirement means re-aligning your priorities with the situation you face. In my case health issues take priority and I must reduce my expectations accordingly.
Retirement for me means writing, reading and being in touch with my family and friends. I intend to attend lectures, play bridge, and continue to blog on a regular basis.
Thank you to my friends,family and ex-clients who have been most supportive during this most difficult time in my life.
G-D Bless
David
Friday, May 10, 2024
RETIREMENT, IT IS TIME
ECCLESIASTES
"To everything there is a season and a time to ever purpose under the heaven."
There is a time for everything. Now is the time for me to retire after 52 years of service. It has been a pleasure and a priviledge to have served as your psychologist.
My health has deteriorated somewhat and I can no longer be available to you as needed.
I intend to formally retire May31. In the interim I am available to see you until MAy31.
Many thanks for this wonderful journey of 52 years..
David
Saturday, March 30, 2024
MY JOURNEY WITH CANCER
Recently I had a screening, CAT Scan, Bone Scan, and MRI ,where I learned that my cancer had not metastasized to the liver. Chemotherapy, while hard on my body, has proven to be highly effective.
At this time the plan is to stop chemotherapy to give my body a chance to recover and to monitor me closely by scanning me on a regular basis. Neuropathy in both my fingers and feet has been particularly problematic.
Despite these side effects and with the help of two blood transfusions, I have more energy. Indeed for the first time in 7 months I have begun to see friends in person.
I plan to continue practicing my craft, albeit on Zoom, as long as my health continues to improve.
As my energy increases and my side effects are reduced I am hopeful of travelling to the west coast to see my family.
It takes a village to deal with cancer. I am grateful for the excellent medical care I have received. In addition I appreciate immensely the support I have received from my family and friends. I especially feel blessed by the support I have received from my clients.
Thank You.
G-d Bless.
DAvid
Wednesday, February 14, 2024
LIVING WITH FOURTH STAGE CANCER
After a recent CAT and Bone Scan I learned that my chemotherapy treatment has been effective in reducing the tumors. However as I have stage 4 cancer I will need chemotherapy for the rest of my life. The challenge is finding the balance when to have treatment and the need to have a recovery period of time. Essentially it is a quality of life issue that will need to be closely monitored.
As I am now aware that time is limited, I intend to use it to see people and activities I really care about. This includes offering psychotherapy to my clients as long as my health permits.
Thank you for your support and love.
David
Tuesday, January 23, 2024
2024 New Year Thoughts
2023 was a tough year, highlighted by the return of my cancer and chemotherapy treatment. Earlier in the year I was able to travel to Toronto and Winnipeg.my first out of town trips since March/2020.
At present I am limited in my travels because of my chemotherapy treatments. Following completion of my treatments I am hopeful I will be strong enough to travel to Vancouver and Victoria to see my grandchildren.
Having completed 9 chemotherapy session, because of intense side effects I have had to take a prolonged break from my chemotherapy treatments. On the positive side treatments seems to be effective, A CAT scan and a BONE SCAN will be done to verify this information.
During 2023 I was blessed with several visits from my children and grandchildren. In addition I was able to continue to practice my craft for 52 years, albeit by zoom
During my illness I have received incredible support from my partner, family, friends, and especially my clients. I feel profoundly blessed and can not express enough appreciation for those blessings.
I am hopeful 2024 will allow me to return to good health, and enable me to continue to practice, and travel and explore this beautiful world.
Wishing you all a healthy, happy, and peaceful New Year. Once again, thank you for your continues support during this difficult period of my life.
G-d bless
David
Thursday, November 16, 2023
UPDATE -MY CHEMOTHERAPY
I have recently received my 6th chemotherapy session,50% of the required treatment. Although it is too early to celebrate it is a good beginning.
Chemotherapy follows a familiar pattern. Ever second Friday I travel to the IRVING GREENBERG CANCER CENTRE, located on the Queensway Hospital campus. I head to the fourth floor where I am greeted by a friendly receptionist who tags me as a cancer patient. Soon the oncology nurse escorts me to my assigned pod where 3 hours latter I am successfully infused. As I leave the clinic I am given a small bottle attached to my port which further infuses me for an additional 42 hours.
Sunday at promptly 1:30 pm I arrive at an community out-patient clinic where the nurse removes my bottle. I am free again for another 11 days.
During the course of the first week I experience a myriad of side effects including heartburn, indigestion, intestional upset, and extreme sensitivity to cold. In addition I have fatigue.
These symptoms range from mild to severe and at times can completely incapacitate me. During the first week I keep my activities to a minimum. By Thursday or Friday I have regained enough strength to see a few clients.
By the second week I am able to see a full complement of clients. With my immune system revitalized I am able to do some minor chores and attend all the necessary medical appointments. At this time I do not intend to socialize until I receive my seventh CO_VOID vaccination in December.
Essentially the process repeats ever second Friday until I reach 12 chemotherapy sessions.
Thank you for your support during this difficult period of my life.
Tuesday, November 7, 2023
REGRETS I HAVE HAD
At this stage of my life, late in the fourth quarter, I am reviewing my lifetime goals and have few regrets. My career has challenged me and provided many opportunities for me to make a difference in people's lives. On a personal level I have meet interesting and dynamic people from all walks of life.
Nevertheless like most of you I have suffered many disappointments, not the least of them the failure of my marriage in which I failed to communicate my needs and in the process of attempting to please lost my self-identity and self-respect.
After re-establishing myself as a single individual I had a significate relationship in which I did not have the opportunity to engage fully in that person's life as the walls were too high to overcome. For many years I mourned this unrequited love, eventually I had to move on.
Early in my career I needed to make a decision whether to become involved in my family business or pursue a professional career. After contemplating this opportunity I chose to pursue a profession. What profession? At the time I was deciding whether to become a psychiatrist or a psychologist. Clearly psychology won out. My regret was not to pursue a medical career, but not in psychiatry but cardiology where my family had a rich history.
Sometimes in life you come to roundabout and impulsively take the first turn. I experienced this when I had to chose either Victoria or Ottawa in order to pursue my graduate studies. The decision to go to Ottawa has resulted in being physically distance from my family in B.C.I decision I sometimes question?,
Despite these regrets, it has been a fulfilling life. Who would of thought,Dudie, a little boy from North End Winnipeg, would travel the world, write a book, and have a fascinating and meaningful career.
I thank all of you for your support and love that has enabled me to fight this major battle in my life.
Tuesday, October 3, 2023
CHEMOTHERAPY
As I arrived on the fourth floor of the Irving Greenberg Cancer Centre I was greeted warmly by a receptionist who tagged me, DOB,Name, and gently placed a wristband to identify me. I was officially a cancer patient. Asked to take a seat, I was soon escorted by an oncology nurse to Pod A and asked to choose between a seat or a recliner . In additional to taking my vital signs I was interviewed as to my symptoms and state of health.
Despite my anxiety I managed to pass my vital signs. Unfortunately there was a problem with my blood tests., It seems my blood test had been taken 10 days ago, outside the 48 hour window before starting chemotherapy After a lengthy delay my oncologist gave his approval to proceed.
In my opinion, to have a successful chemotherapy infusion one must learn to relinquish control. Essentially you are acknowledging that the nurses and Doctors know what their are doing. One nurse, commenting on my calmness remarked. "You must be a healthcare professional." I take that as a huge compliment.
During my 3 hour stay on the fourth floor I had an opportunity to talk to my neighbour, a veteran of chemotherapy. She was on her eleventh treatment and had lots of words of wisdom to convey.
At this early stage of treatment(I have had 3 treatments),I have learned that you do not develop all of the side effects that they warn you about. In my case,fatique, and sensitivity to cold are my main side effects. During my second treatment I was envious of another patient who was given a popsicle after treatment.
Fortunately I have been well enough to continue with my work, a true blessing to me.
In addition to my physical symptoms, psychologically I have become more emotional and more aware of my blessings.
Thank you all for your support and concern as I continue my journey.
David
Tuesday, August 22, 2023
MY CANCER JOURNEY
Recently after having a CAT SCAN,2 MRIs and a Bone Scan, I learned my urethra cancer had metastasized to my pelvic area. After meeting with my oncologist we decided that the best treatment option is chemotherapy. If all goes well it will take place ever 2 weeks for a total of 24 weeks.
I know I continue to face a rough journey as this is my third occurrence and most threatening. At this point my pain is manageable and I plan to continuing to practice as long as I am able. When I start my chemotherapy I will attempt to see clients every 2 weeks.
Like anyone facing a life threatening disease I plan to get my affairs in order.
I continue to receive much love and support from family and friends.
Indeed I was shocked when my urology surgeon told me I was one of the nice guys and he was sorry.
Recently I travelled to my hometown of Winnipeg where I had the opportunity to revisit my childhood homes and schools. It has been 17 years since I last visit Winnipeg. I noticed many changes including increased poverty and many issues of safety in many areas of the city, On a positive note the recently built Human Rights Museum is a must visit while in Winnipeg.
As I await my chemotherapy treatment I try to live each day fully. It is a lesson for all of us.
Thanks for support.
David