2018 was a mixed year of blessings and challenges that tested my resolve. In the personal area. I moved into a new townhouse with my long time partner.As 2 very strong and independent people there continues to be many challenges integrating our lives.
Despite an initial set back in my health,which necessitated exhaustive and comprehensive medical procedures,I am delighted to report I remain cancer free, a blessing for which I am eternally grateful.
During 2018 I was fortunate to travel to the Caribbean,New York city and many times out west to visit my family. On one occasion I spent quality time in the Okanagan Valley with each of my 6 delightful, energetic, and highly adventurous grandchildren I was blessed to participate in the celebration of my granddaughter's Bat Mitzvah as well as my grandson's Bar Mitzvah. Both expertly reading their D'var Torah portion and delivered a commentary on their Torah portion that totally reflected their own distinct personalities.It is at these moments that I feel truly blessed.
2018 brought the mitvah(blessing) of the wedding of my godson.A newly minted M.D. he is a real mentch(honorable person). It was a privilege to attend this orthodox wedding in which the room was saturated with love and good will.
On a professional level over the past 6 years,I have been blessed with an opportunity to continue to practice my craft with a very supportive and congenial group of mental health professions.In addition, this year I delivered a series of lectures regarding the psychological aspects of retirement.
With the new continuing education requirement of The College Of Psychology Of Ontario,I participated in various professional activities that helped to refine old skills, as well as to learn new techniques applicable to the new age of internet psychology.
2018 has been a challenge on several levels, including the uncertainty and anxiety of having had cancer.There is not a single day that I do not think of the possibility that the cancer might re-occur.Living one day at a time becomes a reality.
Living with an an ostomy presents it own challenges.For the most part I am doing well ,occasionally my ostomy goes on steroids ,forcing me to adjust my schedule accordingly.
The Ottawa Ostomy Society has been a wonderful support to me. I am hopeful in the New Year to be trained to provide support to new ostmates. It is a way for me to give back, for the wonderful support I have received dealing with my new body.
Finally it is a year in which I have lost many friends to the ravages of cancer and heart disease.Others are facing the challenges of living with these diseases.
My family recently lost the matriarch of the Nozick family.My aunt,who was a renaissance woman, of grace and dignity,died on her 100th birthday.
2019 will present it's own set of challenges, which I look forward to meeting.
To each of you and your families,I hope 2019 brings to you an abundance of good health,happiness, and inner peace.
Happy New Year
David
Monday, December 31, 2018
Tuesday, December 18, 2018
REST IN PEACE MY FRIEND STEPHEN
Approximately 2 years ago my friend Stephen and I along with another friend Stanley, were diagnosed with different forms of cancer.Treatment varied widely among us including chemotherapy,radiation, and surgery
We supported each other in our trials and journeys battling against this insidious and life altering disease.Having dramatically different personalities we responded differently to our predicament.
Stephen was facing lymphoma, a systemic type of cancer. During his battle he had many setbacks.Nevertheless, he maintained a remarkably positive and resilient attitude always believing that he would beat the odds.He celebrated life , making new friends from all walks of life.Recently he took a cruise on the Caribbean and raved about the excursions he participated in, including swimming with the dolphins.
Stephen, a rather tall lanky fellow who often went unshaven, had a menacing rather gruff exterior, however when you got to really know him, he had a heart of gold.Despite his own troubles he was always there for me as I fought my own personal battle with cancer. Somehow he would always find the time to phone, inquiring about my health.
A genuine sport nut ,who coached hockey at a competitive level,he had an encyclopedia knowledge of all sports. He religiously followed the daily happenings in the sports' world, and was not afraid to voice his opinion when he disagreed with the experts .We attended many games together and I will miss his company and running commentary of the action
Rest in peace my friend.
We supported each other in our trials and journeys battling against this insidious and life altering disease.Having dramatically different personalities we responded differently to our predicament.
Stephen was facing lymphoma, a systemic type of cancer. During his battle he had many setbacks.Nevertheless, he maintained a remarkably positive and resilient attitude always believing that he would beat the odds.He celebrated life , making new friends from all walks of life.Recently he took a cruise on the Caribbean and raved about the excursions he participated in, including swimming with the dolphins.
Stephen, a rather tall lanky fellow who often went unshaven, had a menacing rather gruff exterior, however when you got to really know him, he had a heart of gold.Despite his own troubles he was always there for me as I fought my own personal battle with cancer. Somehow he would always find the time to phone, inquiring about my health.
A genuine sport nut ,who coached hockey at a competitive level,he had an encyclopedia knowledge of all sports. He religiously followed the daily happenings in the sports' world, and was not afraid to voice his opinion when he disagreed with the experts .We attended many games together and I will miss his company and running commentary of the action
Rest in peace my friend.
Thursday, October 4, 2018
MY HEALTH STATUS-HURRY UP AND WAIT
May/2018 I attend my regularly scheduled biyearly wellness appointment to monitor my colon-rectal cancer.Although I feel well, a blood test to detect cancer is elevated.The test known to have many false positives,is of concern. The decision, is to repeat the test in 4 weeks.
Emotionally I am convinced I have cancer and a limited life span. On the outside I remain calm, continue to practice my craft,while living my daily life as best as I can.
I take stock.Facing these circumstances,one's priorities become readily apparent.. Life is all about one's relationships.
I travel to B.C. to partake in an important family tradition , namely my grandchidrens' Bar and Bat Mitzvah. Afterwards I take my entire family to the Okanogan,where my spirit is re-newed, spending time with my 6 grandchildren.
I arrive home filled with intense fear and anxiety.The test is repeated, with the same results. My health providers decide to take a proactive approach by ordering a series of intense scans.
Unfortunately, I am an informed patient and realize they are looking to see if the cancer has spread. Suddenly, this crisis is all to real.
My anxiety soars.My body hurts everywhere.I try my best to maintain my dignity and live a normal life knowing it could end at any time.
What is it like to have a PET(Positive Emission Tomography)scan?You enter the hospital attached to the Ottawa Cancer Centre like a man condemned to the gallows.Outwardly I appear calm and in control, inwardly I am fighting negative thoughts,fears and anxiety.
People react differently to stress. Some panic,others internalize their stress.Over the years, my stress tends to follow a pattern.Approximately 2 days before the event my anxiety reaches a crescendo. Racing thoughts,inability to concentrate,irritability and emotional liability are experienced
To combat the stress,I follow a routine that has been very helpful to me over the years.,Firstly,I talk about it to trusted friends and family, I exercise intensely, and I pray to a higher power .
I arrive at the hospital,ask for directions, and quickly find my way to the waiting room.At precisely the scheduled time a male technician accompanies me to the preparation room.
The technician,a warm,kind and considerate man in his 40's,explains the procedure,verifies my identification and proceeds with the length preparation for the PET scan.The preparations involves drinking a radio-active cocktail, monitoring blood sugar levels and introducing a dye into the bloodstream.Despite my outward calmness I feel jittery,and I accidentally knock over the cocktail. The technician reassures me all is well and helps to calm my nerves.
Exactly at the promised time,the technician places me on a table and repeats to me the instructions of the PET scan. Essentially my task is to keep still while the machine moves over my entire body at times coming within inches of my head.
Having been the recipient of many scans I have learned how to cope with this procedure.I close my eyes and go to a happier place. For me that is on a beach with my grandchildren or a golf course where I shot my finest round.
Finally the test is over. The technician indicates the picture are clear and after removing my Pick line I am free to go.As is my way, I engage the technician in polite conversation hoping to get a hint of the results.
I leave the hospital not knowing what will become of my life. The wait begins.
Unfortunately,unbeknownst to me the nurse and oncologist responsible for my care are both away on holidays.For over a month I do not hear the results of my test.Fortunately my personal physician received a copy of the test and to my great relief I remain cancer free.
However, there is a secondary problem with my prostate that needs further investigation..Today I learned that everything is OK., I feel blessed and grateful to begin my life anew.I intend to take full advantage of my good fortune and plan to make the world a better place.
Emotionally I am convinced I have cancer and a limited life span. On the outside I remain calm, continue to practice my craft,while living my daily life as best as I can.
I take stock.Facing these circumstances,one's priorities become readily apparent.. Life is all about one's relationships.
I travel to B.C. to partake in an important family tradition , namely my grandchidrens' Bar and Bat Mitzvah. Afterwards I take my entire family to the Okanogan,where my spirit is re-newed, spending time with my 6 grandchildren.
I arrive home filled with intense fear and anxiety.The test is repeated, with the same results. My health providers decide to take a proactive approach by ordering a series of intense scans.
Unfortunately, I am an informed patient and realize they are looking to see if the cancer has spread. Suddenly, this crisis is all to real.
My anxiety soars.My body hurts everywhere.I try my best to maintain my dignity and live a normal life knowing it could end at any time.
What is it like to have a PET(Positive Emission Tomography)scan?You enter the hospital attached to the Ottawa Cancer Centre like a man condemned to the gallows.Outwardly I appear calm and in control, inwardly I am fighting negative thoughts,fears and anxiety.
People react differently to stress. Some panic,others internalize their stress.Over the years, my stress tends to follow a pattern.Approximately 2 days before the event my anxiety reaches a crescendo. Racing thoughts,inability to concentrate,irritability and emotional liability are experienced
To combat the stress,I follow a routine that has been very helpful to me over the years.,Firstly,I talk about it to trusted friends and family, I exercise intensely, and I pray to a higher power .
I arrive at the hospital,ask for directions, and quickly find my way to the waiting room.At precisely the scheduled time a male technician accompanies me to the preparation room.
The technician,a warm,kind and considerate man in his 40's,explains the procedure,verifies my identification and proceeds with the length preparation for the PET scan.The preparations involves drinking a radio-active cocktail, monitoring blood sugar levels and introducing a dye into the bloodstream.Despite my outward calmness I feel jittery,and I accidentally knock over the cocktail. The technician reassures me all is well and helps to calm my nerves.
Exactly at the promised time,the technician places me on a table and repeats to me the instructions of the PET scan. Essentially my task is to keep still while the machine moves over my entire body at times coming within inches of my head.
Having been the recipient of many scans I have learned how to cope with this procedure.I close my eyes and go to a happier place. For me that is on a beach with my grandchildren or a golf course where I shot my finest round.
Finally the test is over. The technician indicates the picture are clear and after removing my Pick line I am free to go.As is my way, I engage the technician in polite conversation hoping to get a hint of the results.
I leave the hospital not knowing what will become of my life. The wait begins.
Unfortunately,unbeknownst to me the nurse and oncologist responsible for my care are both away on holidays.For over a month I do not hear the results of my test.Fortunately my personal physician received a copy of the test and to my great relief I remain cancer free.
However, there is a secondary problem with my prostate that needs further investigation..Today I learned that everything is OK., I feel blessed and grateful to begin my life anew.I intend to take full advantage of my good fortune and plan to make the world a better place.
Thursday, July 5, 2018
TRAVELS WITH DR.DAVID
Recently I had the pleasure to fly to Vancouver to celebrate an important family event,namely the Bar-Bat Mitzvah of my eldest grandchildren.
As most of you are aware,flying is no longer the elegant white gloved experience of our parents.Today, it has become a major hassle,from being exposed to an embarrassing and sometimes questionable body search,to being confined to a space fit for a child,while being encapsulated in a long mental cylinder,flying through space at 550 miles per hour.
Upon reaching Vancouver, we made our way to a beautiful suite in a Victoria home,located in Point Grey, a tony enclave overlooking the Pacific Ocean.That weekend we participated in our family's simcha(joyous event) and bonded with family and friends.My grandchildrenn did their zaidi(grandfather) proud as they performed the traditional Jewish ritual that marked their passage to adulthood.
Following the simcha, I was fortunate to be able to take my entire family to a beautiful resort in the southern Okanagan town of Osoyoos. Here we did what all families do.We ate,drank,swam,golfed and visited the famous wineries.It was a time for Zaidi to spend quality time with my fast growing grandchildren.
All too soon we departed, each going our separate ways.For the third leg of our trip. my partner and I drove through Roger's and Kick Horse Pass and the majestic Rockies.The scenery, arguably the most scenic in the country, is a mosaic of snow capped mountains,lush pine forest, and glacial feed lakes that radiate beauty and tranquility.
The ever popular Banff and Lake Louise are visited by millions of international tourists each year.This year,due no doubt to Megan and Prince Harry,we met countless Brits,who are coming over in record numbers.
However, my personal favourite ,was Lake Moraine,located some 15 kilometers from Lake Louise.This turquoise coloured glacial lake gets it's beautiful colour as a result of being filtered by it's sedimentation Tranquil,with less pediatrician traffic, than it's more famous neighbour to the East.it was an opportunity to be in the mountains and to be one with nature.The purity of the mountain air is intoxicating.Hiking, the preferred mode of travel, is an experience boarding on nirvana. The fact that this scene appears on the back of the twenty Canadian bill,is testimony to it's beauty.
After,reluctantly leaving the Rockies, we made are way to Calgary and after a short plane ride home,we felt refreshed and rejuvenated by our trip.
.
As most of you are aware,flying is no longer the elegant white gloved experience of our parents.Today, it has become a major hassle,from being exposed to an embarrassing and sometimes questionable body search,to being confined to a space fit for a child,while being encapsulated in a long mental cylinder,flying through space at 550 miles per hour.
Upon reaching Vancouver, we made our way to a beautiful suite in a Victoria home,located in Point Grey, a tony enclave overlooking the Pacific Ocean.That weekend we participated in our family's simcha(joyous event) and bonded with family and friends.My grandchildrenn did their zaidi(grandfather) proud as they performed the traditional Jewish ritual that marked their passage to adulthood.
Following the simcha, I was fortunate to be able to take my entire family to a beautiful resort in the southern Okanagan town of Osoyoos. Here we did what all families do.We ate,drank,swam,golfed and visited the famous wineries.It was a time for Zaidi to spend quality time with my fast growing grandchildren.
All too soon we departed, each going our separate ways.For the third leg of our trip. my partner and I drove through Roger's and Kick Horse Pass and the majestic Rockies.The scenery, arguably the most scenic in the country, is a mosaic of snow capped mountains,lush pine forest, and glacial feed lakes that radiate beauty and tranquility.
The ever popular Banff and Lake Louise are visited by millions of international tourists each year.This year,due no doubt to Megan and Prince Harry,we met countless Brits,who are coming over in record numbers.
However, my personal favourite ,was Lake Moraine,located some 15 kilometers from Lake Louise.This turquoise coloured glacial lake gets it's beautiful colour as a result of being filtered by it's sedimentation Tranquil,with less pediatrician traffic, than it's more famous neighbour to the East.it was an opportunity to be in the mountains and to be one with nature.The purity of the mountain air is intoxicating.Hiking, the preferred mode of travel, is an experience boarding on nirvana. The fact that this scene appears on the back of the twenty Canadian bill,is testimony to it's beauty.
After,reluctantly leaving the Rockies, we made are way to Calgary and after a short plane ride home,we felt refreshed and rejuvenated by our trip.
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